'Cause you can't jump the track,we're like cars on a cable
and life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button girl,
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe, just breathe,
Woah breathe, just breathe

Life will never stop for anyone. Life will never stop at all. How can you go on and know that all the pain you feel tonight, you will still feel tomorrow. When will it ever end. Why does everything good never work out? Why is nothing ever fair? Why do we breathe everyday when with every inhale it gives more than ever? Why do we see things that are beautiful and know that we can never be like that? Why do we hear sweet music that tears our unrested souls apart? Why do we touch when we can never have? Can you even imagine what hell will be like if life hurts this much? Why doesn't God save us if we truly are his children? How long can one person stand so many tribulations?

Hey Guys, Life has been ok. You know how it flows w/ a mom like mine. I am really upset though about this whole thing with Sam. I really do like him, and I really wanna be with him. I do agree with him that I don't know it's gonna work out with him trying to get back into school. I guess if it's meant to be it will work out. I really hope it does. He's an amazing guy that treats me well. I haven't met many guys who are that nice, and never one that likes me. He's a special one. I am really sad at the thought of Amanda moving to Hershey for her senior year. I know I'm being selfish, because that is where she knows everybody and wouldn't you want to graduate with all your friends. Secretly I am hoping that she decides not to go, then again I hope she can because there she can have the ultimate senior year with the friends she has known much longer. I guess that's all. Nothing much to tell about in my life. It is extremely boring when your mother over rides almost everything you want to do because she is unsure about the people. One more year here, guys...Then we're out. I can't wait to leave.

To be free once again...Would be a great adventure!!!

I HATE HER SO MUCH!!!!!!!! I HATE MY MOTHER. I WISH I COULD JUST LEAVE. I hate having no control over my own fucking life. I hate you. I wish I wasn't here. I wish I didn't live here. I wish I didn't breath or hurt so much. I know everybody has their pain. Mine is a parent.

Hey Guys,

If God is so great why does he let so many people suffer? How can he let so many people die without cause? Why are innocent people murdered everyday on the streets? Why does he let people into this world who will call themselves christians yet deny by their lifestyle? Especially when actions affect so many around them.

Why does he let people cry themselves to sleep, because those close to them, just tore them apart. Why does he give us free will, only to have it denied by another. Why does he let us live in such a shitty world.

I just don't understand this stuff anymore. For a lil while I thought I had a grip on things, but it turns out I'm more confused than ever.

If anyone does understand any of this, please tell me. I could definitly choose some honest input.